Monday, February 20, 2012

Below the Surface...Finding Deep Strength

Well, to my dear friend @Debbie that thinks I am positive all the time, this weekend is proof positive that I am I had to have "the talk" with my boys to explain to them why I have been so emotional and why this weekend in particular I am a hot mess. They are so loving and patient. I feel bad that I am so human sometimes. But, they know they are loved, and that I am human, and hopefully that will help them someday along their journey. This weekend I have been feeling quite overwhelmed that we will never find a baby. That things won't work out and that there is so much to do. My dear friend @Debbie reminded me that the Lord brings to us exactly what we need, when we need it. That he is aware of us and our desires, even when we think we have forgotten what we really want, sometimes because we are afraid to wish for that we want the most because of the pain or loss we feel when it doesn't come. I am grateful to my dear friends who remind me that it's okay to be human, (you can't do anything to change that at this point)... and that I am stronger than I think I am when I feel most vulnerable. Thanks Sherri, for reminding me to keep digging for deeper strength. I would only add, that under the surface and on my journey down there for deeper strength, is the Lord, who helps me cut through the ice, resistance and pride and reminds me that from the His well my strength is deepened. Love you Girl...!

This ones just for you Lady!..
Below the Surface ...Finding Deep Strength

When we look back on our lives we see that we have survived many trials and often to our own amazement.

We have all faced moments in our lives when the pressure mounts beyond what we feel we can handle, and we find ourselves thinking that we do not have the strength to carry on. Sometimes we have just gotten through a major obstacle or illness only to find another one waiting for us the moment we finally catch our breath. Sometimes we endure one loss after another, wondering when we will get a break from life’s travails. It does not seem fair or right that life should demand more of us when we feel we have given all we can, but sometimes this is the way life works.

When we look back on our lives, we see that we have survived many trials and surmounted many obstacles, often to our own amazement. In each of those instances, we had to break through our ideas about how much we can handle and go deeper into our hidden reserves. The thought that we do not have the strength to handle what is before us can be likened to the hard surface of a frozen lake. It appears to be an impenetrable fact, but when we break through it, we find that a deep well of energy and inspiration was trapped beneath that icy barrier the whole time. Sometimes we break through by cutting a hole into our resistance with our willpower, and sometimes we melt the ice with compassion for our predicament and ourselves. Either way, each time we break through, we reach a new understanding of the strength we store within ourselves.

When we find ourselves up against that frozen barrier of thinking we cannot handle our situation, we may find that the kindest choice is to love ourselves and our resistance too. We can simply accept that we are overwhelmed, exhausted, and stretched, and we can offer ourselves loving kindness and compassion. If we can extend to ourselves the unconditional warmth of a mother’s love, before we know it, the ice will begin to break.


  1. Love you too girl!! With God's grace, may the most you hope for be the least you receive. -Amen